Good morning, I have been wanting to write this review for a week now but you know how life gets when you are a working mom.  Here I am finally writing my honest review on the Faster Way To Fatloss bootcamp I finished a week ago.  I am thrilled to share how amazing this program is and why I am recommending it to EVERYONE.  All ages.

I am 6 months months postpartum with my 3rd baby and this has been the most challenging postpartum journey I’ve been on.  I can honestly tell you I didn’t think it would be I thought I would breeze through it get back to my routine and life would be amazing.  WRONG, I was wrong.  Adding 3 kids to our busy life just turned my routing upside down.  I was in the BEST shape of my life before getting pregnant and I also worked out my whole pregnancy till the day I delivered.  I can’t complain one bit about pregnancy.  I think it was hard to see myself 35 lbs over weight after being in just great shape and healthy mentally and physically.  I was affected by postpartum depression and really bad anxiety.  I did NOT want to admit I had it but I finally started talking about it and had to figure out how I was going to overcome this by what I knew.  I didn’t want to be put on any medications.  I took control and knew I just had to put one foot in front of the other and do my best daily.  That is a tidbit of my story and the Faster Way To Fatloss has played a HUGE role in my journey.

I started the Faster Way To Fatloss after I got a handle on my depression 5 months postpartum and was starting to feel some what normal.  I knew working with Amanda the creator would do the trick.  I knew if I invested in my health I would be more likely to follow through.  Just after the first week I was feeling great.  I was in control of my eating, tracking my macros, carb cycling and intermittent fasting.  The workouts were exactly what I needed, and that first week I told myself “if you cheat, you are only cheating yourself” and I’ve stuck with mantra since then.

The support from other ladies on the exact same journey as me was truly what helped me push through, there wasn’t a day in the 6 weeks that I didn’t feel excited about eating healthy and exercising. I loved checking in and getting encouragement from the ladies each day.  It was my saving grace.  Over the 6 weeks I was feeling my body change, I was noticing clothes fitting better, I noticed my belly and legs were shrinking and I was getting stronger each week in the workouts.  Half way through I snapped a picture and compared, there was a difference and that kept me pushing harder each week.   The 6 weeks were up I was sad that the group was ending the encouraging posts weren’t going to be there for me.  But I did measurement and snapped my progress pictures guess what?  I lost a total of 8 inches on my whole body 5 inches being around my waist.  I was in tears when I compared photos I seen a side of me I hadn’t seen in months.  My mindset is stronger than it has been since I had Nash and I am SOO excited about life again.  About paying it forward and helping my friends and family take control of their life.  I feel confident, I have more energy, I crave less junk and crave more healthy food,  and one BIG thing I did notice over the 6 week course is my confidence in the bedroom sky rocketed and bless my husband’s heart for bearing with me on this rollercoaster we call life.  Postpartum is HARD.  We know sex after a baby isn’t the same for awhile, our bodies are out of wack.

The Faster Way To Fatloss is NOT a fad diet, it is NOT a quick fix, it’s a lifestyle that is very sustainable and something ANYONE can follow.  Yes just like anything new you start it will be hard at first but you have to TRUST THE PROCESS.  Amanda has created an amazing community and an amazing program that is helping women all over burn fat in places they need to most and gaining muscle that we want.

Below are my 6 week progress picture.  I haven’t weighed myself but I lost a total of 8 inches all over and you can see I burned FAT everywhere.

So you might be wondering what makes the Faster Way To Fatloss so special.  Amanda the creator does her research she is on top of  whats happening in the fitness industry.  The Faster Way is strategic and is macro based.  No calorie deficits, no starving yourself, no hours and hours of workouts at the gym.  Intermittent fasting, carb cycling and tracking macros is KEY to the program YES nutrition is key.  Then the workouts are planned to exactly what you nutrition is for each day.  I love the lifestyle and it works well for me.

Next Faster way To Fatloss round is June 18, trust me when I say it truly is the BEST.

I don’t remember having postpartum depression or anxiety like I have dealt with currently with my first 2 babies.  This third has been challenging.   But I look back and think how could this one be worse than my first.  I had recently got divorced after only 6 months of marriage and had found out I was pregnant on my 20th birthday I cried ALOT.  I was scared, I have so many doubts and fears going on in my head.   I didn’t have the answers of how I was going to take care of a baby at age 20 ALONE.  I am sure I dealt with anxiety and depression then, there is no way I didn’t.  Back then I wasn’t mentally or physically fit and I just hid everything deep down.  But I don’t understand why it is more challenging this time around with my 3rd, gosh I should know how to do this by now right?   I am totally wrong, this 3rd baby was planned I have an incredible supportive husband that is the best dad to our kids, I have everything I could possibly imagine in life and yet I have been so UNHAPPY with life.  I have not been myself and it has affected my relationship with my husband and kids.   This is the definition of depression to me and it is truly something I have had no control of.  I did have control over what I did each day though, I did have the choice stay in bed and be depressed, feel sorry for myself or get up, get ready, take care of me so I could take care of everyone else.  I made a promise to myself over 4 years ago that I would make a lifestyle change, not just physically but mentally and emotionally too.  That promise was that I would put myself first and take care of my health and happiness so I could be there for my kids and husband.   I have NOT broke that promise, just 2 weeks postpartum with Nash I was feeling great and started yoga and slowly eased my way into a more challenging workout routine.  Before I had Nash I had the PERFECT morning routine down it was my time ALONE to read personal development, meditate, workout, and just have some peace and quiet to myself.   Then I had Nash and my world was turned upside down, I had 3 kids now, a husband and myself to take care of.  I knew it would be tough, but I didn’t know I was going to become depressed and lose myself in a dark hole.  I am definetely more aware of how I feel emotionally and mentally than ever before and I am positive this is why I am struggling more with anxiety and depression more this time around.  I got to a really good place mentally where I loved myself unconditionally, I had a clear mind because I was taking the much needed time each day for JUST ME!  The baby was a HUGE adjustment for the whole family, and when mom is not in a good place it seems like everyone gets down too.

I am so grateful for my husband, and my 2 older kids they have been so patient with me and my postpartum journey.  I am here sharing this with all of you because I know SO many moms who deal with this but are SO afraid to talk about it,  and get the help and support they need.  I was there, I was embarrassed, I didn’t want to admit that I had something wrong with me.  Especially depression and anxiety.  I have been working as a pharmacy technician for 10 years and see every health issue out there, at my job we deal with a lot of mentally ill patients.  So having to admit that I had some issues was SO hard but I am so glad I finally admitted to myself and my husband that it’s real and it is something that I am personally dealing with.  I am personally against taking anything medications for my anxiety and depression, I understand some people truly do need that help professionally but I am one of the rare people that just refuse to rely on pills when I know what it takes naturally to feel my VERY BEST mentally and physically.  So..here is the good stuff here is what I have been doing to overcome postpartum depression and anxiety naturally.

1. Meditation / Journaling
2. Personal Development
3. Nutrition
4. Exercise
5. Being open and honest with myself and the people closest to me

These are non-negotiable for me to do EVERYDAY.  Trust me when I say I wasn’t always this motivated or positive.  If you know me very well, you know I was the MOST miserable person ever.  I blamed my miserable attitude on other people and was very unhealthy and unhappy with myself.  I am very grateful I am healthy enough to do these things daily.  I am very grateful I have the love and support I need to get me through this tough time in life.  I am very grateful for my incredible body, carrying 3 healthy babies that are my WORLD.

Depression and anxiety are so REAL!  Don’t ignore the empty feelings, don’t feel embarrassed to feeling like you aren’t good enough.  First step is admitting to yourself that you are dealing with this and then making the choice to get better.  I am always here to chat if you need a friend, I understand how you feel and together we can get better and be healthy happy mommas that we deserve to be!!

XOXO,

Kylee

“So many years of education yet nobody ever taught us to love ourselves and why it’s so important”  I seen this posted a week ago and it struck me.  I never grew up learning how to love me for who I was meant to be, I never knew why I couldn’t just be happy with who God created.  We are all created differently and there is something about each of us that is special.  Do you love who you truly are?  Or do you struggle to love the skin you’re in?

My self love started January 1st 2014 when I decided to make self care a priority, self care meaning eating healthier whole foods, working out daily, and being a more active mom for my children.  Also, having more positive thoughts towards myself.   I was told once by my counselor that self care is NOT being selfish, it should be a priority.  He seen that I had completely lost all my self care and was worried more about pleasing other people.  That phrase as stuck with me since that day, but I still didn’t apply the self care as a priority until 3 years ago.

We shouldn’t have to go through a HUGE life transformation to find self love but that is what it took for myself to see how amazing I truly was.  I didn’t just transform on the outside it was the inside emotionally and mentally that stuck out to me and made me realize I could do hard shit, and wasn’t being selfish for taking time for myself.  Am I proud of myself YES very proud for what I’ve accomplished in just 3 short years, I’ve learned more about myself and emotions in 3 year than I have my whole 28 years of life.

I am now 23 weeks pregnant with my 3rd baby, I am due with a little boy November 25th.  The idea of having another baby was so exciting and we were so anxious for it to happen.  Well, it happened!!   I wasn’t expecting all these emotions and negative thoughts to come rushing back into my mind,  I knew I was going to gain weight so I instantly created positive affirmations for myself to remind myself how amazing  and strong my body truly is.

Self love have a whole new meaning to me now that I am 20 lbs heavier.  Watching my body transform backwards has been amazing but very CHALLENGING.   These baby’s we grow inside of us are a blessing and a miracle.  It has been very challenging though, and I am learning to love myself in a whole new way, self love for me came as I started to see physical results, but self love isn’t about having a nice booty, a flat tummy, 6 pack abs or great legs.  Self love is about loving the skin you are in no matter the number on the scale, each time you look at yourself in the mirror you should see an amazing women who has created life multiple times like me or in the future is going to create life.  Our children are NOT taught self love in school, who is responsible for teaching them self love?  Us as parents are responsible for teaching them how to love the skin they are in and the person God has created.  We are all unique!

I am not saying you shouldn’t take care of yourself mentally and physically though, I still highly recommend you working out daily, fueling your body with healthy food, and growing your mind with positivity.  Mentally this helps me cope through my anxiety and depression, I will always make self care a PRIORITY even over kids children and husband because I know when I am feeling my BEST that is when I am the BEST mother and wife!

Love yourself you deserve it!

XOXO Kylee

Do you ever wake up in the wrong mood but still have to go to work, be a mom, or in general just live life.   We all do some more than others.   Most of the time we don’t know why but wearing a mask just to cover up the depression, anxiety or bad mood is easier than facing our real emotions.  Growing up I always remember being such a nervous and anxious kid.  I developed anxiety early on.   School would make me nervous.  Being home would make me nervous.  Being at a friend’s house would make me nervous.  I don’t remember very may times feeling at ease or relaxed.  I learned early on I could put on an “I’m ok mask” and go about my day without dealing with my emotions.

I am now 28 years old, a mom of soon to be 3 and still deal with anxiety and depression.  Some days I wake up with anxiety for no reason.  But there has to be a reason why we wake up feeling that way right?  Most of us don’t even know why we feel that emotion of being nervous, depressed or stressed.  I am still learning what triggers mine and how to handle my emotions each day, naturally.  It can completely drowned you, hold you back from doing what you love, and being close to the people you love the most.  I have found ways to cope with mine naturally, over the last 3 years exercise, eating healthy, fueling my brain with positive, uplifting information and surrounding myself with a community of women who get me and my struggles.  It has completely transformed me from the inside out, most days I do great but there are those days I just can’t get away from it, and find it extremely hard talk to anyone about it without tearing up and crying over it.  You can’t talk to someone who doesn’t understand how you are feeling, they just don’t get it!   I just have to remind myself  that it’s perfectly ok to feel those emotions, and I just have to let it out.  We weren’t given a manual on life, and life is HARD!

I was never taught how to deal with my emotions growing up and now I am mom.  A mom of soon to be 3, 3 kids that need me as their mom to teach them everything they need to know about life and how hard life can get.  I never imagined becoming a mom in the circumstances that I did 8 years ago, it was the hardest and darkest of my life.  But it was a HUGE blessing in disguise.   That “mask” helped me through ALOT of hard days.  Now I am seeing myself in my 7 year old, he has anxiety too.  He has a hard time relaxing, and just putting his mind at ease that life is great.  He also struggles with loving himself they way he is, it breaks my heart to see him feeling exactly how I do and not know why he feels this way.  We are working through it together and taking it one day at a time.

I am a true believer that we go through hard times in life to make us stronger and give us a purpose to live.  It is crazy how we think we can’t survive something but down the road look back and say WOW I made it through and now I am a stronger person.   Mental illness is not addressed enough, from experience it’s sometimes easier to just to just wear the “mask” and pretend life is GREAT!  Holding those emotions back can do more harm than good.  Counseling does HELP, finding the right people to talk to as well helps too!  This isn’t an easy thing for anyone to talk about but I felt like I needed to share it with you.

Thanks for taking the time to read this and see a glimpse into my life.  I have more good days now that bad days but those bad days can be HELL!  Now that I am more aware of my emotions anxiety it showing up more often with this pregnancy but finding what helps me cope is important and I’ll keeping pushing through it.

XOXO Kylee